Letting go

Ashwin Goyal

Nov 21, 2023 — 1 min read

They're like shadows, always with me, holding my peace of mind hostage. Just a sound, a smell, or a word, and I'm back in those heart-wrenching moments, overwhelmed by fear and doubt.

Regret weighs heavily on me. Why was I there? Why did I make that choice? I should've known better. This regret slowly morphs into anger, an anger that simmers inside me. It's directed at others for not preventing my mistake, at the world for not being what I needed, but mostly, at myself.

But letting go isn't about forgetting; it's about accepting. Accepting that the past happened and that the past cannot be changed. Accepting that that the lessons I've learned are tools for etching a better future, not for altering the past. And accepting that redemption comes from making amends that let my conscience proudly proclaim, "I am good, so let the world judge as it must."

Talking to my future self

I'm writing to you from a place that's kind of tough, but I keep thinking about what our life is like in the future. Are you the strong, amazing person I dream about? Have you carried the weight of everyone’s expectations? You know, I say

Going viral

As I hit ‘post,’ a piece of me sails off into the vast ocean of the internet. The immediate aftermath is a rush - the dopamine kicks in. Likes, comments, shares begin to trickle, quickly turning into a blazing stream. It’s exhilarating. Every notification a pat on the back,